Soulmates - A myth??

            Pick your timeturner.. spin the wheel.. go back in time.. back to your fairy tale days.. The prince comes with a shoe.. finds the perfect match.. and there you go.. Cindrella found her prince.. and they lived happily thereafter ..*If only life were all that easy.. sigh!* but BAAMMM *reality check* we live in a real world..with  people who fear for their family, society, friends and at last fear of themselves..  In this chaotic world of ours do soul mates really exist?? Is there a Prince Charming or Princess Charming waiting for you? A match for you made in heaven.. existing??? Oh boy! Wake up .. Nothing in the world is tailor made for you..

            So what is all this tizzy about soul mates? Two people with same taste.. same ideologies.. same mindset.. same goals are soul mates. Well , that’s subjective.. Some people would say people whose imperfections match perfectly are soul mates.. In my opinion , its neither! When you find a person with exactly the same interests , ideologies and mindset as yours.. it will be astonishing.. overwhelming..  exciting.. but over passing days.. you will start reproaching it.. Its human mentality! How much ever you cherish and appreciate somebody who is like you.. deep down there.. your alter ego.. would simply despise the fact! Nobody likes having a clone or duplicate of themselves..  Every individual loves that uniqueness about himself / herself..  On the flip side.. when you find a person whose imperfections match perfectly with yours.. you will appreciate it.. you will find solace in it.. but in due course.. you will find fault with it.. you will pick up fights over it.. Again human psychology.. We are programmed to overlook the differences of opinion only for a while.. Nobody likes being contradicted for ever!

            So there is exists no soul mates?? Woah.. that’s too early to jump to a conclusion.. Out there.. in this huge World of ours.. we meet a thousand people a day.. we may like a few .. we may hate a few.. we may fall in love with a few..  But the big question here is.. out of those few you fall in love with who is the one for you?  “THE ONE FOR YOU” doesn’t jump  from heaven.. and holds a card for you..  You cant go searching for that one either..  What is the solution then? Well, the one for you.. may or maynot have the same tastes , ideologies, goals as yours.. nor may he/ she be your total opposite.. Every person on earth connects with every other person on some level or the other.. The ones which are ready to hang on there despite all the differences.. emotional drain outs.. drama .. tornadoes and down pours.. is THE ONE for you..

            As the days roll by.. your moods go for a full circle.. starting from happiness to anger to madness to silence to depression to tears to loneliness to suffocation to happiness again..  people walk in and walk out.. but only a few people choose to stay put with you.. and if among those few is the one you love.. then he or she is THE ONE for you..  If you can never let go of that one person no matter what.. if you think its all worth hanging on.. then just don’t let go ! You have found your  SOUL MATE .. your PRINCE or PRINCESS CHARMING.. But but.. and here come the buts.. In the pretext of hanging on and fighting for that love .. in the wildest of days .. in the stormiest of situations..if  even at one instance you lose yourself completely.. you are become somebody who you are not.. then trust me , its just not worth it! Changing yourself for the one you love is not wrong.. but the overdose is lethal..

            When even taking those baby steps .. learning to walk comes with a lot of difficulty.. how can the one who is gonna walk with you for the rest of your life come so easily..  When you make up your mind and decide if he/ she is the one..then its definitely worth a fight.. worth a wait..

            No two people in this world are meant to be.. People are born.. and people die.. in the journey in between.. love happens.. and when it does .. it leaves a few bruises here and there.. and when you chose to stand up tall despite all the bruises .. then love sure is going to unfold its tent and camp in your life..  

Cheers to all the soul mates out there !

Its Not Easy To Be Me

                Well , The title says it all , Its not Easy to be Me. You See, Everybody is special. I mean Each and Every One out there is special whether they are reading this or not, I just don't give a damn...
Everybody is a hero, a lover, a fool, a villain. Everybody has their story to tell and Irony is that Happiness is the most insidious prison of all where one dreams of getting in and out wearing a Mask to cover up what they really are on the inside.They disguise themselves cos they fear rejection and the mistakes of their past. Well, I DO,They say the past doesn't hurt you , unless you let it. Sadly, that's not true. It haunts u day in and day out, lurks in the darkness of your shadow and soul,waiting to pull you down, patiently scheming and Baamm !!, u r down with the bullet. To protect thyself , We Ought to Wear the Mask for so long and That makes you forget who you are beneath.I'm one of those few people. I'm also one of those in this cruel world, who prefer solitude and can withstand it. Yes, I prefer Loneliness more than wondering where the hell do I belong ?? 
    Growing up watching the superheroes , I used to wear a cape on my back and play pretend. I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a Plane , I'm Superman is what i used to say. It was simple back then when i didn't know that it just an imaginary world and in reality even heroes bleed. It turns out I still play pretend with my life , disguising my true identity and be just a silly guy in a funny red sheet looking for special things inside of me. I'm tired of putting on a fake smile on my face everyday as I walk out my room.  Dreams and Hopes lie shattered. Expectations have Piled up only to make you realize that u r down in the gutters and  u can't do a f...ing thing that u have to .Yes , I'm sad and lonely and yet I don't find any tears coming out. I feel hollow inside , I feel that I'm crying so hard but where are the tears i wonder.!! Living up to those expectations is something I could do When There was this side of me , used to believe that I could achieve whatever I wanted in my life by working towards it with all my heart and I wanted only the things I deserved , Nothing more and Nothing Less. Used to Smile From the Heart and Used to fell Happy that I'm making at least a few happy. I Used to know what I could do and What I couldn't do is something i have to work on and make it happy. This is me and  I no longer able to find that side of me. I tried digging deep only to find Kryptonite and in the process I started killing myself , Losing faith in all those around me and Losing the courage to fight on. I labelled myself as a Failure in the game of emotions that life puts you through with people in it who betray you and who heed to you. 
Ever since that, I have been nothing but the one u see now. I'm not Me , well i try to be and  I just don't know how or why or when I ended up in this position I'm in .I know I'm making no point here but just sulk this is how my life has turned out to be ..I don't have any complaints on anybody but myself . I f...k Don't deserve anything which i haven't worked for or fought for to earn it. I do feel that I have to man up , find myself the courage to face it all but there's this guilt in my heart I'm putting up with everyday that makes me think I'm the smallest person in the world who just doesn't deserve anything and that kills me even more. I'm Clear now that I am at the crossroads of Life and  I Don't have to cover much distance before I end my Journey and in that short distance I'm yet to travel , I just hope that there comes a time where I would feel I'm somewhere I belong. Somewhere where I can live with this guilt I'm carrying everyday and finally adios with a true smile from my heart....

End of the world

To all the people who are cracking jokes and laughing at the 21.12 myth.. sorry to say.. you have really mistaken.. the world ended even before that.. yes.. it did.. we fell short of our destiny.. the world ended on the 16^th of December!!! The day when the animal in you took control.. your mind conked out.. your humanity took a back a seat.. no no.. that’s the wrong way of putting it.. your humanity committed suicide.. and the brutal demon in you wanted to feed the pleasures of your disgusting body and soul.. Yes that was the end of the world..

Is this the first case about abuse to women..? Everyday..somewhere in this world.. be it Australia.. The United States.. Japan.. the United Kingdom..our very own motherland.. India.. be it big or small.. be it developed or under developed.. be it black or white.. some woman .. somewhere is being assaulted.. And here,  what do we do  about it.. We sit back in our living rooms.. read it on the newspapers.. see it on the television.. discuss about it..a pinch of anger.. a pinch of sorrow.. a pinch of sympathy.. how long does it last.. a minute.. a couple of minutes.. an hour.. a day.. a week maximum.. and then.. that’s it.. we are all to set for our next work.. we just move on..

But but.. do we ever think about the the family of the victim.. her life.. her future..how long is  that brutal incident going to last in their minds.. what impact does it have on their lives.. will she ever be able to get her feet  back on the ground and lead a normal happy life.. ?? How many of us think about it.. in this million odd population we can still hand count the number .. and I can bet on it.. !!

Who said education makes a person better.. who said only illiterate, uncivilized men involve in such vile acts.. Who said that all? In a country where tradition is so deep rooted.. culture is cherished and celebrated.. rites and rituals are given more importance than even life.. where morals and values run in our blood..the legacy of the family stepping down for one generation to the next.. where family bonding is not just taught but practiced.. where besides sweet, salt and spices added to your food..  compassion, love, humanity, affection are blended with the food that your mom had once fed.. if this outrageous .. horrendous incident can happen.. Then don’t you think we aren’t alive anymore..!!! The fluid flowing in our body is no more blood.. it is gutter!

Where do you think India stands in the world based on  violence? Don’t bother thinking.. it is just a mere number.. that number is not going to change anything in this beautiful country of ours.. So where is the problem.. why does this happen.. Is there an end to it.. The blame game goes for a complete circle! So there is no point in talking about that.. What is our solution.. Woah woah wait a minute.. India is facing bigger problems now.. from corruption to the Indian cricket ! They are more important now.. they have to discussed.. They have to be sorted out first.. Who cares about what happens to one girl in some town in this huge country.. Well I just have one question.. if this beautiful Mother India is going to let every child of hers succumb to physical and mental violence.. sooner or later … leaving half of her land barren.. without any of her children surviving.. then ...for who is this government going to work for?? When there are no people.. where is the question of democracy.. where is even the need for a government..???? A government is not set up for the people to fight for their personal egos or to think about why India is not playing well in the cricket matches..

All these were made for the people.. when  Cricket is to entertain.. the government is to protect.. !! It is high time that we remind our honourable government its actual purpose and its duties..

But wait…We do have proper laws to protect us.. but still we have a problem.. so where is the mistake ? Who breaks these laws?

We THE PEOPLE!!! People includes common man to the police.. and even  the President.. We break the laws … and we scream on top of our lungs for somebody ‘s justice.. what rights to do we have? Be it even the smallest of things.. If you just spit on the road.. you have broken the law.. and you have committed a crime.. and yes you are CRIMINAL.. And what rights does a criminal have to fight for justice? Whether it is big or small.. a crime is a crime.. and you are a CRIMINAL! When your mind allows you to break a small simple law.. it would definitely encourage you someday to commit a crime as disgusting as this..It is the common human attitude..nope I don’t wana even use the word ‘human’ anymore.. it is a common attitude..  that everything is fine as long as it doesn’t happen in your household.. What happens behind the closed doors of your house is none of your business..

We keep our eyes .. mouth .. ears and our sensitivities shut!!! And what do we gain from it?? Nothing.. it is not the peace of mind.. Ignorance is not going to give you a serene calm life.. It is going to inflict pain.. its ruthless claws are going to threaten you everyday.. yes it is going to kill you everyday.. It gives you FEAR!!! You will die suffering the from the pangs of fear!

Every human is made of bones.. flesh and blood.. Pain is common to all.. So you hurt somebody today.. and you inflict pain on them.. please remember you are composed of the same things.. and you are in no way immune to pain.. the same can happen to you any time..

If there is a little bit of “HUMAN” left in “MAN” .. I m appealing to you.. we are not asking you to worship us .. like Godess Laksmi.. Godess Parvati.. Godess Saraswathi.. or Virgin Mary.. we are not asking you to protect us.. we are not asking you to go out of your way and help women.. we are just asking you to let us live in peace..we are not asking your permission.. we are just emphasizing our rights.. especially to the ones who have forgotten.. we have the right to live a normal life just as any other living being on earth!!!

Till the day the humanity returns and takes its place in every soul on earth.. we are just cadavers roaming around …and the Earth is nothing but a ball.. a ball revolving to just accomplish its function.. a ball which is slowly burning to ashes in the flame of violence and brutality!!!!

Yes the world has ended for many a million like me!!